I tend to get reflective around the new moon and this month’s new moon was no different. I woke up feeling a little dreadful. I had intended to sort through my attic and donate some things but didn’t have the energy. I kept having this thought that I needed to clear out the old to make room for the new.
As I looked around the attic I realized that I really like most of the stuff and I didn’t want to get rid of it. We were in the middle of finish our basement and the attic would be our next focus. I have ideas about having some guest rooms and perhaps an office and bathroom in the attic at some point in time. It wasn’t going to happen right away, but the things I was considering donating could be useful once that attic is complete.
I felt sad about this. How could I bring in more abundance if I’m not clearing out the clutter first?
As I had the day off, I spent some time taking a walk, meditating and generally lollygagging around. It felt great to have a day that was filled with literally nothing. But I had this nagging questions going around and around my head. How can I bring in more abundance if I’m hanging on to old stuff?
Towards the end of the day I laid down in the grass and looked up at the sky. It was a clear blue with no clouds at all. The temperature was just right at around 76 degrees and there was a gentle breeze. It felt good to lay there just staring into the sky. I started to relax and just lay there enjoying it. My body relaxed, my mind relaxed and I just stared.
After a while a thought came to mind: What if I kept what I had AND embraced more?
Universe: Yeah! You can keep what you have AND want more.
Me: WHAT?!?! Are you saying I can keep what I have (because I love it) and still be eligible to get more stuff?
Universe: Yes. That is what abundance is. There is no limit to what you can wish for and have.
I was dumbfounded and lay there for a long time letting that roll around in my head. I can have what I already have AND ask for more. I don’t have to clear out and get rid of anything. I can simple have it all.
As a (somewhat) minimalist this just blew my mind. I had always practiced clearing out. I felt like it was very important work to ‘get rid of’. But sometimes I regretted what I got rid of and eventually re-purchased it. It was wasteful and stupid. I had this rule that if I wanted a new pair of shoes I should let a pair I already had go to make room.
To think that I could keep what I already have AND get more was crazy! But I realized that feeling like I had to get rid of things in order to have more was like believing the universe only had so much to give me, that there was a limit to what I was allowed to have. This is the exact opposite of abundance. It was the very epitome of lack. I felt underserving to have more. While I was working on my mindset around abundance I had actually been believing the opposite.
I had convinced myself that there was a limit to what I was allowed to have. That is was an either/or decision. But true abundance is having ALL the things I want.
I spent the rest of the day letting this roll around in my mind. I can keep what I have AND ask for more. What a beautiful idea. I will work on graciously accepting all the gifts I receive.