We Can Do Hard Things

The big question right now is whether or not our kids will go back to the classroom as they have done so many years in the past.

My first reaction is “For the love of God, NO! Don’t make me ‘homeschool’ my kids again.”

It was hard. It was stressful. I run a business full time. I have a house to maintain. Helping my kids with their schoolwork is a terrible idea. They will fail under my guidance. I am not a good teacher. I lack the patience and knowledge. I forgot everything I learned when I was in 7th grade.

But we are healthy, and I want to keep it that way. It is my focus, my aim. It is the thing I use for making all my decisions right now. When I keep that in focus, my ‘why’, I can hear the music que up like Rocky climbing up the stairs and pumping his fists in the air. This is a marathon and I will run it. The whole course. Not giving up.

I can do hard things. I am strong. My mind is clear and open to learning middle school math.  This is just a season in my life. In this season I am required to do hard things. I do not need to worry about what everyone else is doing. Other people may make choices I do not agree with, that is o.k. It is their right. I will stay in my lane, focusing on my family.

I will have days where I fail, but I will continue the course. Focused. I will do my part to keep my family healthy and strong. I will say a prayer every day for the school staff and all the other parents as we face this interesting school year.

We are a team, a community. When one of us does well, we all do well. When one of us needs a hand up, we reach out. When we all protect the health of our families, we are protecting the entire community. Be strong. We can do this!


Sleep Update

Sleep Update

After weeks of trying everyone’s recommendations, two things stand out the most:

1. Melatonin is my new best friend. But I have to mention that I am having the strangest dreams. Is it because I am sleeping more soundly or because melatonin is giving me ‘night trips’?

2. Sleep hygiene is key (thank you Sue). I turn all my technology off an hour before sleep. I don’t drink any liquids after 8:30 p.m. so I won’t have to use the restroom during the night. I don’t watch tv (especially the news) before bed. I”m drinking a lot less alcohol.

I really appreciate everyone’s input. I am feeling like a new person these days.

Benefits of good sleep:

1. I am making better eating decisions.

2. I feel more emotionally capable of handling my day

3. I have more patience.

4. I have energy for my daily walk or workout.

5. I am a kinder person.

6 . I look better.


Sleep Tracker Test

I am a terrible sleeper. I go to bed plenty early and wake up without an alarm clock around 6:30 a.m. whether I want to or not. But I never feel well rested. I have had this problem for as long as I can remember.

This year I wanted to focus on upping my sleep game. At first, since I owned an Apple Watch I tried to wear it to bed and see what it had to say. I found it too uncomfortable to wear while sleeping. Wearing the contraption on my wrist woke me up during the night. But I tried it for a few nights to see if the stats would be helpful.

Then I got out my old Fitbit and tried that on for comfort. I was more comfortable and smaller, but still hard for me to wear while I slept. I toughed it out a few nights before deciding I could not sleep with that either. But I did check my stats for any valuable information.

I then purchased an Oura ring. This was an investment but had an excellent return policy, so I decided to give it a try. This was the most comfortable of the three trackers, but still not tolerable to sleep with. The stats were not particularly helpful either. I returned it.

I was able to try each option out for a few days before deciding I did not like sleeping with them on and they all said about the same thing. I was awake 1 to 2 hours during the night tossing around. No shit Sherlock. Tell me something I did not already know.

What I want to know is why am I waking up and not resting well. How can I change my habits to get better quality sleep?

One thing that I noticed while using the trackers was that I would look at the stats in the morning and immediate feel angry at my poor sleep score. And, as I would go to be each night, I would start to stress about what my sleep score would be in the morning.

I have come to the conclusion that the trackers not only did not give me any useable information, they added to my stress about sleeping which was not conducive to good sleep.  What should I try next? My mission continues.


My How Things Have Changed


I have made some significant changes during the Covid-19 Stay at Home order. I used to think I could not live without the latest nail color collection from OPI. Every season I would run to Ulta and grab them up. While there, I would also end up purchasing the latest eye pallet or contour pallet.


I have come to realize, after months of not purchasing any new makeup or nail polish that I don’t miss it as much as I thought I would.


Some might argue that I have ‘let myself go’. I would like to argue that I have made progress accepting how I look with what God gave me.


I ran out of my favorite brow color recently and ordered a replacement on-line. As I was waiting for it to arrive, I went without my brows colored in. This is something I haven’t done since the 80’s. I decided I’m o.k. how I look without brows. As a matter of fact, I rarely look in the mirror during the day except for the occasional restroom break, so I don’t even think about it. Once my brow pencil arrived, I decided I didn’t really need it. It just may be the last brow pencil I ever purchase.


Another thing I realize I don’t miss is browsing the isles at TJ Maxx. Since I am home more and have spent extra time dusting, I have decided the cute clutter on my shelves are a pain in the butt to move around every time I want to dust.  Most of it has been moved to the attic for donation at a later date.


I have changed my perspective on what I really ‘need’ in my life. I’m grateful for my family’s good health. I’m grateful for cupboards that are full and a well stock refrigerator. I have clean water, a warm house.  Everything else is just a bonus.


While I don’t always focus my attention on the upside of this pandemic, I realize that some real good has come out of it for me.